Authentic Living

My Journey to Authentic Living

The most common question I still receive from people who know me when I tell them I’m a life coach is, “Wait, weren’t you in law?” 

To some it may seem that I woke up one day and decided I wanted to be a life coach, to help people improve the quality of their lives and attract their ideal relationships. That in the process, I threw away years of education, legal training, not to mention the thousands of dollars I had invested into pursuing a career in law.

In reality, it took years upon years of healing, personal development and really discovering myself in order to be able to follow my passion, quit the conventional career path I was following and instead courageously create a business that serves my true life’s purpose—helping others shed the layers of childhood conditioning in order to create their ideal life and love.

For most of my life, I hid the true parts of me from others for fear that people would think I’m “weird” or “too out there.”

As a child, I knew I was different from all of the other kids in school. While everyone played and had fun interacting with one another, I was really introverted and liked being alone. I honestly believed living in the fantasy world I created in my mind was a lot more interesting than the reality I was experiencing. Although I had friends, I didn’t really click with many of them.

I LOVED to read books, write creatively, play the piano and I had a very active imagination. Everyone always told me I’m wise beyond my years.

When I pictured the future, I always saw myself as an adult speaking on stages, being an author of many books, inspiring people through an inspirational message and being someone of value to the world. At the time, I didn’t know how that dream would unfold but I believed it to be true to the core of my being. In third grade, I even started writing a novel and had friends read the chapters as I completed them– but when my mom found it and asked questions, I got really embarrassed and threw it away!

In my teenage years, my focus was just on fitting in– I wanted to feel like I belonged. I can’t even begin to explain the different phases I went through. I had my tom-boy skateboarder phase because I wanted to be a “bad-ass,” I went on to hang out with the troublemakers, the basketball kids, choir groups because singing is another passion of mine. My personality was really adaptable.

The one subject that fascinated me and I couldn’t get enough of was psychologyI just loved learning about what made people tick and why we do the things we do. I could actually see myself being a psychologist or therapist. I remember telling my mom in 10th grade that I wanted to be a therapist—but I soon changed my mind after being met with the response that therapists don’t make money.

Still in the state of mind of wanting to please my parents, make them proud and be someone who made a difference in society, I knew I had to pick a more “acceptable” career path. But what? Nothing interested me, nothing seemed to light a fire in me as much as psychology did. Without knowing it at the time, that is when I started really living inauthentically and denied my calling.

Growing up, I didn’t follow a religion, although Christianity is an integral part of the Armenian culture. I didn’t have any real beliefs in God or in a higher power. Deep in my heart though, I knew there were forces at play but I didn’t have any spiritual theories that made sense.

It wasn’t until I took a yoga class in my first year of college that I was introduced to spirituality. To be honest, I hated it at first because every inch of my body ached; even muscles I didn’t know existed hurt badly. As I stuck with it and developed my yoga practice, I felt alive, looked great and my instructor introduced me to new spiritual concepts, such as pranas and the process of enlightenment.

It all came together when that same year, I took a critical thinking class, which focused on Plato’s work as well as the work of so many great philosophers. Through yoga and philosophy, life started making sense to me, and I was determined to learn more about enlightenment.

Despite my budding spirituality and sensing my life’s calling, somewhere along the path, I made a decision of becoming an attorney. I can’t explain where that decision came from– perhaps it was because the only two options I thought I had were to either be a doctor or lawyer. Science didn’t really interest me all that much, so I went on to study political science and philosophy at the University of California, Los Angeles.

There I was, living away from home, with complete freedom and finally the ability to live life on my own terms. What did I end up doing? What most college students do—drink, party, date, and squeeze in studying before finals and midterms.

In my social interactions, I presented myself as being a “cool chick.” Someone who was open-minded, go with the flow, had no real objections and was easy to be around. I definitely got a lot of attention by showing up this way, but it also caused me to be a push-over because I tolerated more than I should have just to feel loved. I have explained in other posts how romantic relationships were also difficult for me.

I had reached my goal of attending to a prestige university, but for some odd reason, I was miserable. I literally felt that I was constantly surrounded by so many people, but felt incredible alone. A real heartfelt connection where I could be truly seen and heard is what I desperately longed for. Instead, I coped with alcohol, partying, and hiding behind different personas. Little did I know that what I really needed was to be connected with my authentic self.

A defining moment for me was when I first came across Deepak Chopra’s book, The Spontaneous Fulfillment of Desire. I was at LAX airport and I decided to stop by a bookstore to find something I could read on my long flights to Armenia. That book immediately caught my attention as if it was jumping out at me. I had to get it.

In the book, Deepak talks about how everyday “coincidences” are really prompting us to tap into the field of infinite possibilities (also called the field of pure potentiality) and when we harness the power of the universe that also exists within us, we can create a miraculous life, thus experiencing the spontaneous fulfillment of desire.

To be honest, I didn’t quite understand the concepts when I first started reading it. I wasn’t receptive to the wisdom at the time. It wasn’t until two years later when I graduated college and experienced another heartbreak after a relationship didn’t work out that I said enough was enough. I couldn’t continue living life the way I had been for so long, it was too painful. Something had to change because I felt powerless. That’s when I picked the book back up and finished reading it cover to cover.

The second time around, I was hooked! The wisdom started making sense and I was willing to buy into the idea that there is a field of pure potential and infinite possibilities, that I could become aligned with these energies and change my life. I got Deepak’s audiobooks, listened to his seminars with Wayne Dyer, played these audios during my long drives—I lived and breathed this newfound spirituality.

It didn’t stop there, I found other inspirational thought leaders, and downloaded their teachings, insights, wisdoms. I signed up for countless email newsletters from coaches, read consciousness blogs, books on miracles and law of attraction. For the first time, I felt more in control of my life rather than a victim. I became a self-help junkie.

I kept this part of my life a secret, thinking it was too “out there” for some people. I assumed people would think I’m weird if I told them I was all about energy work, healing processes, mantras, intuition, psychic readings, spirituality and embracing conscious enlightenment. Yoga was a safer interest that I was fine with sharing, but nothing deeper than that.

This was also during the time that I had applied for law school, only to get accepted to my “worst-case scenario” school. Feeling disappointed, I was hopeful that I’d somehow make it work.

During this time I was also opening up to the idea that there is so much more in life that’s possible for me and that I need to follow my passion by living from my soul’s purpose.

While reading Wayne Dyer’s book Real Magic three weeks before starting law school, I had an intuitive hit that I could feel SO STRONGLY, it was undeniable—my intuition told me point-blank, don’t do it. Don’t go to law school, that’s not what you’re meant to do.

What!? How could I not go to law school?

I already did everything I needed to do to get accepted, paid the deposits and was preparing to start soon, I couldn’t back out. Fine, even if I did change my mind, what was the other option? Go back and study psychology which I loved, take the requisites, and pursue a PhD in psychology? It was tempting but I feared I’d lose too much time going through all of those courses, whereas I could simply complete three year of law school and start a career. I chose the latter option.

People ask me all the time whether it was worth it for me to go to law school. My answer is always yes. Why? Because during those three years, I learned the most about myself and committed even more intensely towards living my authentic truth.

During law school, I had 3+ hours commute roughly five days a week. Most people asked how I could handle the drive– my response was that I enjoyed it because it was my “me” time. That’s when I had audio recordings from Deepak, Wayne, Louise Hay playing as well as webinars about love and relationships. I was shifting my consciousness, healing my life and forming new beliefs every day.

The fun part was that all of the things I was learning—stepping outside of my comfort zone, dealing with fear, reframing my beliefs and self-doubts, showing up in a bigger way in life—I used opportunities in law school to practice deliberate manifestation using law of attraction principles.

Everyone could see a difference! I was happier, more peaceful, and way more confident. I was attracting amazing job opportunities with huge companies, law firms that others only dreamed of. On top of that, I even won awards and became a competitor in a national mock trial competition. More importantly, I was feeling more comfortable letting my authentic voice, vulnerabilities and all, show to others.

People would ask, “Everything is going so amazingly for you, what are you doing?” On the outside I looked like the luckiest person, but little did anyone know, I was harassing universal and spiritual principles as well as implementing practical exercises to deliberately create my reality (I wouldn’t ever tell people that because again—I feared being judged).

Because I followed other coaches and inspirational leaders so much I wondered how I could be just like them. One day, I had received an email about an opportunity to become trained as a life coach. This was the first time that doing work that my heart desired actually seemed like a real possibility for me—best of all, I didn’t have to go back to school to get a PhD to get started!

Even though it appealed so much to me, my mind was still focused on taking the California Bar Exam, getting a law license, working in a law firm and building a steady career. Just the thought of the process was literally soul-sucking, I dreaded having to embark on that journey, and the more I thought of my ideal lifestyle, being an attorney was not the path towards the life of freedom, abundance and fulfillment that my heart craved.

Nevertheless, I took the Bar Exam and worked at a Beverly Hills law firm. I was still too afraid to reveal to anyone that I hated every moment of pursuing the legal path—I was more and more convinced with each passing day that it wasn’t for me, but I felt stuck.

It wasn’t until I met the love of my life that I revealed my dream of being a life coach. He saw how passionately I spoke of wanting to help people on a deeper level make profound shifts in how they show up in the world and in their lives. His comment to me was, “You speak more passionately about being a life coach than you ever did about being an attorney.”

He was absolutely right. I lit up when I thought of how I could change people’s lives with all the wisdom and experience I gained through my own transformation. The best part was that as I contemplated becoming a coach, I saw that all of the essential traits and characteristics that make a coach powerful, I already possessed naturally!

I heard time and time again how I’m so comfortable to talk to, people trusted me almost immediately with things they’ve never once revealed to anyone within a few minutes of meeting me. I already listened closely, allowed people to feel safe, truly heard and encouraged positive shifts in their mentality.

My boyfriend is by far the biggest blessing I have received, because he saw the real me. He gave me the strength, encouragement, and the nudge I needed to dive right into pursuing my passion, my real calling, i.e. life coaching.

You know you’re on the right path when doors open up for you without you having to effort much. The right people show up, the right opportunities become revealed to you in order to support you on your journey.

That’s exactly what happened once I made the decision and committed to not only being trained as a coach, but starting my coaching practice.

I’ll admit I trembled with fear and anxiety when I first launched my business and announced that I had started working as a life coach. I was scared about the reaction I would get. Luckily that fear and nervousness was short lived because everyone responded with so much enthusiasm, support and positivity.

I even landed my first paying client within a few short days after making my coaching official!

Since then, my strengths, talents, gifts, and abilities as a coach have been acknowledged in so many ways including from amazing clients, leaders in the industry as well as coaches I’ve personally followed as well.

I trust that my possibilities for making a difference in people’s are endless.

The lesson behind my journey is: don’t hide your passions, interests and feelings from yourself and others simply because you fear how people will judge or respond to you. Your natural talents and strengths will also be acknowledged and revered once you allow yourself to put priority on your heart’s desires simply because they light you up.

In fact, expressing your authentic truth will not only make you more attractive and magnetic to others, you’ll also manifest a deeply fulfilling life with people who love you for you.

And hey, even if people don’t accept your authenticity, that’s okay, because so many other people will resonate with your truth and admire you even more for it.

If you can take away thing from my journey, it’s this: have the courage to honor yourself and trust that your feelings and desires are guiding you towards living the life you came on this planet to live.

To learn more about how you can live more authentically, schedule a FREE assessment session with me. I’m happy to help you along your journey towards showing up as the real you.

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